Reflections - For Families of Sandy Hook Elemetary

Just hearing the news I could not imagine racing to my daughter's school from work, wondering if she was alive or dead.  So many parents faced this horror today.  I do not know what to say, and prayed to God for the right words.  Sometimes just being there is the best thing.  Please keep them all in your prayers.

I see them there,

As I come around,

They are smiling to me,

Always contagious,

Very outgoing,

Your burdens lift,

When in their presence,

I feel it every time,

It hits me again,

Later in the day,

Outside in the laughter,

In the crowd I hear them,

I see them from behind,

Approaching with joy,

I want to be there,

Just to laugh with them,

Their images disappear,

Along with their lives,

Taken from them suddenly,

Stolen from our hearts,

They were killed,

With homework undone,

With hearts untouched,

Other lives to be won,

Love to be unleashed,

Felt in other arms,

Their children will never be,

All of this taken from me,

With a shot to my heart,

Yet my mind is reeling,

For why do I see them?

Is the pain too much for me?

Was this more than I could see?

Can I not accept they are gone?

I can’t keep seeing them,

My sanity begs for mercy,

Through the veil of my tears,

Yet why are they smiling,

When I see them now?

Could it be they are well?

Happy in Heaven’s fold,

In a paradise of no pain,

No memory of wrongs done,

If God is really out there,

Then they are with Him,

If they are truly with Him,

Then what am I seeing?

Why would God allow that,

If He truly loves me?

Perhaps it is a sign,

Knowing what is real,

And they are in paradise,

Is a vision I am given,

To allow me to heal,

I know they are not here,

They cannot truly be,

Perhaps it is reflections,

Accounting for what I see,

As an image bends on water,

I cannot see them clearly,

But I can see enough,

Since I can see beauty,

I cannot explain,

Why tragedy strikes,

From freedom of will,

Which he placed in existence,

So that the likes of us,

Have the power to transform,

The power to change lives,

Or bring them to an end,

If he placed such a thing,

As free will in my hand,

I will help others with it,

Those grieving around me,
To show them what I see,

So that they have truth,

Knowing life is still precious,

Our friends our in our hearts,

And as we hold each others hands,

Nothing can destroy love.